Sunday, December 15, 2002
Another new year will come in less than three weeks. Another year that hopefully will bring everyone an endless joy, a new beginning and a new hope. As for me, the new year will take me for a ride in a new life journey through a different path and in a different time and place. Hopefully this time it's gonna be a smooth journey. Well, of course there will be a few bumps here and there... but hey ... I've gone through that before ... I've been there done that .. what do I have to worry about. *sigh* .. But how come I keep on asking myself the 'What If's' questions? Why? Dude, I have to admit that I do feel a little scared. All these scary thoughts about uncertainty have seriously weighed me down. I'm so anxious ... I'm afraid that this may not be the right path. What if it's true? Owh man... there goes the what if question. Argh... don't you just hate it when these things happen? It's like you're trying to find a firm ground to stand on but what's around you is nothing but fielthy mud.
Hhhhmmm.... maybe I shouldn't think about it too much. Maybe I should just gather all my strengths, have more faith in myself, and start from there. Just go with the flow, I guess. Take it from the brighter side ... if something shitty ever happen (considering shits happen almost all the time)... at least I wouldn't have to face it alone... my loved ones will be there to support me. My dad, my sisters, and my brother will cheer for me .. "c'mon sistah.. you can do it"... hehehee and my nephew will scream, "Go auntie go!!!" ... hehehe... norak ah! Anyway, I've made up my mind ... I'll take this path no matter what. I'll be sure to keep my fingers crossed and my hopes alive.
Jakarta .... HERE I COME!!!
"Drive - Incubus"
Sometimes I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I cant help but ask myself how much I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer
It's driven me before, it seems to have a vague
Haunting mass appeal
Lately I'm beginning to find that I should be the one behind the wheel
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there, I'll be there
So if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive
Will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive, oh oh
It's driven me before, and it seems to be the way
That everyone else gets around
Lately, I'm beginning to find that when I drive myself, my light is found
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there, I'll be there
