Saturday, August 07, 2004 In case you haven’t noticed ....
my status is now changed to ‘single’ ... again. Hehehehhe.... yes people, I’m back in the jungle again for the Xth number of times. Can’t tell you what happened, tho. Let's just put it this way ... we’ve had problems since Day 1 and now the problems are finally solved (unfortunately by breaking up). I knew this relationship is coming to an end... sooner or later. But why did it have to happen today yah ... off of all the days in a week ... why today. Something happened earlier today. It got me so furious, sad, and I just cried all morning. All I wanted to do is to get my ass out of the house and get some fresh .. ehem.. polluted air. So I decided to come in to work. But it didn’t happen after I looked at myself in the mirror. I looked so shitty. To top it off, I’m losing my voice, too. Ick ! I refused to be the topic in anyone’s conversation on Monday morning. So where should I run to? Frankly speaking, at this particular situation ... anyone in my shoes would run to their significant other for some comfort, right!?! ... Wrong! I sms-ed my used-to-be bf to come and pick me up without telling him what happened. I did plan to tell him when I see him. I just want him to take me somewhere .. and I proposed pet shop (at least no one would care how I look .. not even those poor cats, rabbits, and hamsters in their glass cages). Unfortunately, he was busy doing other things. Aih poor me! Then a quarrel took place ... and as one thing led to another ... we ended up saying good bye to each other. Not a good way to split up sih. Well there’s never been a good way to break up, anyway . But heck this one is actually much better than the last break up I had. In fact, I was all relief when this happened. I called up some people afterwards; this is what they had to say:
A : “Congratulations! Tell me dear, what took you so long...” -> Geez man ... how encouraging
B : “Hehehehe.... kucian deh loe” -> aih... shut up!
C : “I didn’t know you were seeing anyone ?” so out of the loop ... *sigh*
Anyway, I’m sleeping over at Diah’s place tonight. Her comment was “Kurang asem ... jomblo aje baru nyari gue.” Hehehehe... bukan karena jomblo juga sih. Gue lagi pengen update gossip aja. Taunya tuh orang malah tidur. Cuih !
Oh I almost forgot to share a good news. I’m in the process of quit smoking. Hehehehe... I’ve been doing it for a week and so far the progress looks positive. I hide all my cig in my drawers at work and I just chew gums whenever I crave for it. I don’t even take my cig to lunch nor to meetings anymore (FYI, smoking is allowed anywhere in my office ... even during meetings). Well I’m quitting simply because it’s about time for me to quit the bad habit. And also ... because ... I really wanna have a baby someday. Shocked, anyone!?! Hehehhe ... gue minggu lalu beli novel judulnya “Diary of a Mad-Mother-to-be” by Laura Wolf. Gue beli karena dulu Emil pernah ngasih novelnya Wolf juga yang judulnya “Diary of a mad bride” and it’s very entertaining. Anyway, di mad-mother-to-be ceritanya tentang punya anak gitu2lah. Call me mellow .... tiba2 gue jadi yang berangan2 kayak orang ngidam gitu. To tell you the truth it is my dream to have a baby. Not now. Someday. So ... in order to make that dream comes true ... I’ll start by quit smoking. The next thing on the list is .. .to find a great guy to be my lovely wedded husband who can help me conceive my future baby. Too bad we don’t have sperm banks down here. Hehehe.. just kidding.
I’m tired of typing. I wanna go to bed and have a sweet dream. Nite all!
